Uneasy

I've had the strangest feeling all day today.....almost like the calm before a storm. I just can't put my finger on it except to describe it as a feeling of unease. I keep going through things in my head trying to find something I've forgotten to schedule, or pick up or do. But, I'm coming up empty.
We were extremely busy at work today, and I think that contributed since I wasn't able to accomplish everything I would have liked to, and I feel like there's something that I must have missed there too. Morgan had Ballet Class tonight so I had to rush to the dance studio right after work and there I made sure I had all the tickets for her recital paid for, her photo time scheduled in my planner and all the info I need for her upcoming recital. Thankfully, her softball practice, which was scheduled for 7 (15 minutes after Ballet ends) was cancelled due to the weather today. She was tired today and so was I.... and she just doesn't look good to me right now. She's looking a little pale and tired and I'm concerned (freaked out) that another seizure may be coming. I'm sure I'm just being paranoid....it's this day.
Right now I'm sitting on the couch (again) working on the mountains of laundry (again) and listening to music while I write this. At this moment, one of my favorite songs of all time is playing....Good Riddance by Green Day. I don't know why, but I LOVE this song and I never tire of listening to it. Morgan is flitting about from room to room coloring, writing menus, playing with the dog and talking. She's all excited about her Spring Pictures at school tomorrow and which earrings she's going to wear. Oh, and about her school project. Hers is a report/presentation about some guy who invented chewing gum. I've already forgotten his name. And she's already decided that she wants to make a diorama for her presentation although she hasn't yet decided how she's going to make a diorama of gum exactly yet. She's still thinking about it. I'm sure she'll come up with something creative. Katie is on MySpace right now (BIG Surprise) after cleaning most of the evening. She wants to have her friends over this weekend to watch the Sweeney Todd DVD that she's planning to buy this week with the money she earned babysitting over Spring Break. She's very motivated since I told her that NOBODY was coming over until the house was spotless....lol. Hey, whatever it takes, right? Now Morgan's being some sort of animal trainer and has Bear (our dog) jumping over upside-down laundry baskets. She's looking for more treats as we speak. And that's my cue to get going before she feeds the dog so many that he's sick.

Sundays

Today I'm sitting on the couch with my new laptop writing this. I have mountains of laundry surrounding me and no end to it in sight. We've had a very busy last couple of days and my goal today is to get all of this blasted laundry finished and try to get organized. It seems like that's a recurring theme in my life......to get things organized. I feel like I'm a basically organized person. If you could see my desk at work, you'd think I was crazy.......I have everything in its place...ALWAYS. And, I'd like nothing more than to have my house the same way. The only problem is, I live with 3 people who have no concept of order and no desire for organization. It drives me crazy. Instead of fighting it, which is a hopeless cause, I try to pick my battles and let it go. But, ever so often it gets to where I can no longer take it......the clutter and disorder drives me crazy and I have to do something about it even though it won't last a week. And, now is one of those times. I've got to get this place in order again. And, I'm going to be fighting everyone to help me, or driving them nuts at the very least. Morgan has dance, and softball practice after school tomorrow so that will seriously cut into my housework time, so I need to get as much accomplished as possible today. I just wish my body would cooperate with me and this headache would go away. And, I wish Katie would help me instead of insisting that we put up the new lights we bought at IKEA yesterday RIGHT NOW. She was in no hurry for anything I asked her to do. I'll tell of our weekend tomorrow. It was quite a weekend and amazing really, but my head hurts too much to concentrate and I just heard the angry warning from the dryer telling me that I need to get up. I wish it were tomorrow already.....or at least that the mountains were levelled.

Chaos

The title of this entry pretty much sums up the past couple of weeks. I'm getting used to the thought that Morgan may in fact be having seizures.....I guess time can do that to you (or for you), but I still wish that I didn't have to live with the uncertainty for so long. Our first appointment with a neurologist is scheduled for April 22nd and try as I might, I can't seem to get one any sooner. I'm supposed to try every few days to see if there are any cancellations, so we have that to hope for. Other than that, it's just every day hectic things. Katie is taking driving class this week and next, so there's that and all the running that entails. And, Morgan has dance and softball starting. I've got to get the house cleaned 'cause I'm having Easter here like always and I have a to do list a mile long. I don't even know where to start with that. In fact, I don't even think my to do list is finished. Real organized, huh?
On that note, I think I'll work on a list......at least that's a start.